ALL OF IT
to not go to Target & buy 100 cookies and shove them all in my face.
My HK made me cry in the car on the way to Tennis by shouting at me & calling me stupid.
She didn’t see me cry, I held it in until she got out of the car, but I feel like shit.
I only asked her a simple question, nothing offensive, just what time some people would be done so I can move the car closer & you would of thought I had called her a c-bomb or something the way she reacted.
She started screaming, smacking her knee & saying I TOLD YOU NOT TO TALK TO ME, I AM IN A BAD MOOD AND I TOLD YOU NOT TO TALK TO ME! AND HERE YOU ARE TALKING TO ME, ARE YOU STUPID OR SOMETHING?
This isn’t like her at all, it really isn’t.. she can be a bit spoilt sometimes, but she’s generally nice to me.. I wouldn’t stay if she wasn’t nice.
But it just completely took me by surprise & I burst into tears as soon as she got out of the car.
All I want to do is stuff my face to make myself feel better.. I already am feeling pretty shitty at the moment.. shitty & homesick & lovesick & doubting myself a little bit… this was just the icing on the cake.
I’m not going to do it, I’m not going to go to Target, I’m drinking coffee right now to take my mind off it & blogging about it so I’m not thinking about it anymore..
What is wrong with me at the moment?