Getting Skinny in America


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A former Aupair living in America, turned Benebabe living in the South West of England, trying to get in the best shape of my life!

Keto & Weight Watchers

Highest Weight: 23st
SW(in USA): 20st10lbs/ CW: 14st12.2lbs/ GW: 11st
Total Loss: 8st1.8lbs (113.8lbs)
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ALL OF IT

to not go to Target & buy 100 cookies and shove them all in my face.

My HK made me cry in the car on the way to Tennis by shouting at me & calling me stupid.

She didn’t see me cry, I held it in until she got out of the car, but I feel like shit.

I only asked her a simple question, nothing offensive, just what time some people would be done so I can move the car closer & you would of thought I had called her a c-bomb or something the way she reacted.

She started screaming, smacking her knee & saying I TOLD YOU NOT TO TALK TO ME, I AM IN A BAD MOOD AND I TOLD YOU NOT TO TALK TO ME! AND HERE YOU ARE TALKING TO ME, ARE YOU STUPID OR SOMETHING?

This isn’t like her at all, it really isn’t.. she can be a bit spoilt sometimes, but she’s generally nice to me.. I wouldn’t stay if she wasn’t nice.

But it just completely took me by surprise & I burst into tears as soon as she got out of the car.

All I want to do is stuff my face to make myself feel better.. I already am feeling pretty shitty at the moment.. shitty & homesick & lovesick & doubting myself a little bit… this was just the icing on the cake.

I’m not going to do it, I’m not going to go to Target, I’m drinking coffee right now to take my mind off it & blogging about it so I’m not thinking about it anymore..




What is wrong with me at the moment?

  1. wrestlewithmyyouth said: awww bbycakes *Hugs* <3 I’m so sorry! Hard as it is, don’t let her get to you. From what I’ve read about your HD, if he was my dad I’d never be in a good mood. Jussayin. Not that it excuses her behavior at all.
  2. gettingskinnyinamerica reblogged this from heidandseeking and added:
    :O THAT GIF!!!
  3. heidandseeking reblogged this from gettingskinnyinamerica and added:
    Apparently you cannot send monkey hugs through asks :(
  4. eatcleantogetlean said: So glad to know I’m not the only one. Here for support if you need it!
  5. tehnastynasties said: You should totally get the cookies. Doooo it.